I didn’t sleep last night, but that’s not a surprise.
I was wondering what to do about the job offer. I didn’t have any other
options, but in some ways I’d rather never see that man again than have to deal
with feeling like shit every time I saw him because I felt so rubbish about
myself. There was also the whole humiliating myself in front of him on a daily
basis thing to worry about. I doubted he was used to people keeping him
waiting, so I took out the card from my pocket (now dog eared and creased from
being unfolded so many times last night) and typed out a quick text saying I
would love the job, but not to expect much as I had no clue of what I would be
doing. He replied almost instantly, telling me I start tomorrow, bright and
early, and sending me an address to meet him at. Shit.
The
rest of the day was devoted to trying to get coffee stains out of my one shirt,
desperately scrubbing like a mad woman. It didn’t work so I went to the shop,
bought a ton of coffee and dumped it in the sink with the shirt and boiling
water. We used to do this at school to make paper look like parchment, but this
was important! If I made it look worse, what in the hell was I going to wear?
If I turned up in a badly dyed shirt, he would be a laughing stock as I would
be representing him. I had to look half professional. At the moment I had a
pair of smart trousers and a couple of nice bras as the shirt was still
soaking. This couldn’t work.
After
four hours I rinsed out the sink and shirt, the whole apartment smelling of
cheap coffee (it was better than urine that was for sure). I held it up to the
light and groaned. It looked worse, much, much worse, as in I’d been in a mud
wrestling tournament. The colour was uneven and patchy and it did in fact look
like the paper were used to dye at school…like a kid had done it. Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!
What do I do now? I could get some brown or black dye
and do it properly, but I couldn’t afford it! Shit! I needed a charity shop!
What did they call them over here, thrift stores? Would I even be able to
afford that?
I
gathered all my change and found I had a grand total of $7 to get me through to
my first paycheque. My savings were earmarked for rent, not luxuries such as
food and clothing. I swallowed my pride and headed downstairs to ask the creep
at the door if there were any thrift stores around. He narrowed his eyes, blew
smoke into my face and laughed, walking away through the ‘staff only’ door.
Well fuck you too buddy! I was somehow going to get very rich and then buy and
destroy this building with him in it.
The
usual suspects were hanging around outside the building, asking again if I
wanted to ‘party’ with them. I politely declined and walked away quickly. Today
just got better and better. I went to visit my ‘friend’ at the local store and
ask if there were any thrift stores in the area. He surprised me by giving me
directions to two! I thanked him over and over, buying an apple out of guilt.
The first shop wasn’t hard to find, but was more a ‘vintage clothing store’ i.e.
extortionate. The second one was slightly better with racks and racks of
shirts. It was the size of a small supermarket, clothing and furniture of every
kind. I found several shirts in my size, and bought two (they were $3.50 each!
YAY!) one white, one black. They smelt a bit like moth balls and cigarette
smoke, but I couldn’t have cared less. It was slightly better than smelling
like I’ve bathed in coffee.
Back at
my flat I washed the shirts and desperately tried to dry them, wringing them
out, swinging them around in the bathroom…anything to get them ‘less wet’. I
need my own reality TV show as someone would find my bad luck hilarious. The
building had a laundry room, but the creep at the desk delighted in telling me
it was out of order. It wouldn’t have mattered anyway, I probably wouldn’t have
been able to afford it. He did have an iron though, which he grudgingly leant
me, the wires bare and on the verge of breaking. I might die just to dry and
iron a shirt. There were worse ways to go, so I sucked it up and ironed the bloody
things, using the counter as a board. It worked ok. They smelt of soap now
which was good and they looked pretty good. I’m always in charity shops back
home due to a lack of finances, so that wasn’t even an issue, it was just the
worry that I wouldn’t notice a HUGE tear up the back or something equally
ridiculous.
Sleep didn’t come willingly that night either. I spent
the time studying his recent career I those awful mags, trying to grasp what I
could about him. There was a feature on a charity event he had run for Oxfam (A
famine charity from the UK) to raise money. They’d managed over a million
dollars apparently and donations were still coming in. So he was a
philanthropist as well as handsome, talented, sweet and every other bloody
perfect part of him. They did have a hilarious feature in one of the magazines
about (as he was currently single) how to impress Van Murphy so he will date
you. As funny as it was, it stated his favourite foods, brand of cigarettes
(blergh, I’d be putting a stop to that!) and how he liked his coffee. I would
be sucking up majorly tomorrow and turning up with coffee when I met him. Heh
heh heh. Maybe it’ll make up for the monumental ways I will fuck up for the
rest of the day until I get fired (because it is inevitable) I just hope he’s
willing to pay me for the one day, I really am going to struggle otherwise.
Morning
came and the day was gorgeous as usual. I dressed, drowned myself in perfume,
scrubbed my teeth three times, flossed, mouth washed and chewed gum to ensure I
was as un-gross as possible. I found the building quite easily as his
directions had been pretty specific thankfully. There was a coffee shop across
the street so I headed there first, grabbing him a coffee and pastry
(apparently he is awful for remembering to eat Breakfast. I’d be his girlfriend
in no time…as if. I just hoped no girls actually thought an article like that
could ever help them, even though it was helping me) I charged them to my card,
which would now be overdrawn, but that was fine.
I walked
back to the building and stood waiting nervously as it was still locked up. My
knees were alternating between shaking and locking from fear. Finally a beaten
up Ford truck pulled up and parked, that glorious earth bound angel stepping
out. He is probably very rich, but drives that thing! I love him!
“You
found it ok?” He said.
I nodded once, muted by terror, and handed him the
coffee and pastry.
He looked inside the bag and his eyes lit up before
inhaling the smell of coffee deeply.
“Thank
you. You’re already my favourite PA ever.” He said with a laugh, taking a long
drink from the cup.
“How many have you had?” I asked in a small voice.
“You’re my first actually, so this could be interesting. Do
you prefer Georgiana, or something shorter?” He tore a chunk from the pastry,
his blue eyes dancing.
“George, or whatever you like Mr. Murphy.” I said, keeping
my eyes lowered like a Victorian scullery maid. He made me so bloody nervous.
At least I hadn’t dropped the coffee on him. Just thinking about that made my
own burns throb. They didn’t hurt too badly, but I had completely drowned them
in antiseptic cream three or four times a day.
“Van.” He said, sipping the coffee again. He stretched his
arms above his head and tried to suppress a yawn.
“Van.” I repeated. I’d be calling him Mr. Murphy before the
day was out no doubt.
His eyes would constantly
flick down to meet mine, an insecurity that wouldn’t allow him to meet my eyes
fully. This boy was a complete antithesis. He had the whole world at his feet,
drooling over him, but he seemed to hate the attention. Every picture in the
magazines that hadn’t been for an ad or movie promo had had a frown or blatant
discomfort on his face. I think he was far, far deeper than anyone gave him
credit for, there was a lot more going on with him.
“I read you have a son.” I said, trying to find a topic
that he would enjoy talking about.
His whole face lit up, from
his eyes to the corners of his mouth pulling into a fond smile.
“Luke. He’s 12 now. He splits his time between mine and
Sofia’s.” He was gazing into the distance, lost in some memory.
“Do you have a picture?” I asked.
He nodded, pulling his wallet
from his pocket and taking out a well-loved picture. I knew there would be no
doubt that the kid would be gorgeous, his genes were insanely perfect, but he
was so cute! His hair was white blonde, he looked tall and slim with his
father’s eyes and the brightest smile! I’m not a fan of kids and definitely
don’t want them, but his sweet grin made my heart melt a little. I could see
why he was so proud -he was practically bursting with it. I was relieved not to
have to pretend he was gorgeous when he was ugly. I’d had to do that no end of
times with relative’s babies, and I was an awful actress.
“He is stunning.” I said, meaning it and thankful it
sounded sincere. Sometimes when I speak, even if I am being completely honest,
I sound sarcastic or false. I overthink things and they come out sounding
wrong.
Van beamed at me, finishing
the pastry and pulling out a packet of cigarettes. Urgh.
He held them out to me and I
shook my head violently. Lung cancer? No thank you.
“I probably should have asked this first, but what are we
here for?” I said, realizing I should have brought notepads, or a diary….but
they’d have to wait, I was too broke.
“Interview. My personal hell.” He said with a wicked smile.
“There are only so many times I can be asked the same question and not murder
someone.”
I choked out a nervous giggle.
That is exactly how I would feel in his position. I suddenly felt worried that
I would have to insert ‘NO COMMENT’ s if they asked an awkward question, but I
didn’t know what was awkward or not. What were the taboo subjects? Would it be
professional or polite to ask?
I was chewing clean through my
lip when Van interrupted my thoughts.
“You don’t have to do anything or say anything today, it’s
just to give you an idea of how boring and monotonous this area of my life is,
to see if you still want the job.”
“From what I’ve read –and they weren’t the most reliable
sources- you need someone to ensure you eat and sleep more than anything else.”
Once the words were out, I flinched, bracing myself for an angry tirade which I
no doubt deserved. Who said things like that! On their first day when they
don’t even know the person!
He laughed, and it was such a
wonderful sound, my body relaxed a little. He lit the cigarette and took a deep
draw, blowing the smoke away from me like a gentleman. I hated that he made it
look good. Smoking is probably the dumbest thing humans have come up with
(apart from cheese in a tube, a pet rock, and a whole encyclopedia full of
other moronic things) and I loathed it, but he just looked incredibly charming
and sexy when he did it. Maybe it was the ‘bad boy’ edge to it? That couldn’t
be it as I usually thought smokers were complete D-bags, especially when they
claimed to be ‘social smokers’.
I had lost myself somewhere in the middle of this
internal rant when Van laughed softly.
“You should see the expressions going across your
face. You’re not having a seizure are you?”
I could feel myself blushing, but the way he said it
made me grin. I bit my lip to stop it.
“We’re going to be spending a lot of time together if
you want the job, so I should probably warn you about my warped sense of
humour, the way I greet people by flipping the bird, the smoking, the bike
obsession, the not eating properly, sleeping properly and general inability to
look after myself like an adult should.” He chewed his fingers after saying all
this.
“So you need a mother, not a PA?” I said, feeling that
he might find this funny. He didn’t have the airs and graces that I had
expected from a Hollywood movie star. He was downright sane and grounded, he
even mocked himself. His ego was hell of a lot smaller than it had any right to
be in his circumstances. I really hope he kicks puppies or something, otherwise
I can see myself falling completely, head over…
“Something like that.” He stubbed out the cigarette
butt and lit another.
“As your PA, do I get to comment on things that are
detrimental to your health and wellbeing?” I said, making my eyes wide and
innocent.
He raised an eyebrow and took the fag out of his mouth
and put it back in the packet.
“I’m suspecting that you’re actually something of a
drill sergeant in the body of a tiny, skinny British girl.” Both of his eyebrows
raised in surprise and teasing.
Finally, someone who
understood me!
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