The pitiful amount of money I had was further diminished by
the extortionate cab ride. It was the only way I could be sure of finding the
place, even though it was within walking distance (about an hour’s walk, but
that’s nothing to me, I walked everywhere back home) The taxi driver made the
(now standard) comment about how ‘cute’ my accent was. I doubted they said that
to English men, but I smiled politely and told him to keep the 50 cents change.
Hey Big Spender! Welcome to Hollywood! He looked confused, probably never
having had such a small denomination as a tip. I hopped out quickly in case he
mugged me for more. Ha ha I don’t have any, so it would be a complete waste of
your energy! Booyah! (I was way too old, uncool and white to say that.)
I took a deep breath as I stood outside a HUGE studio lot,
security at the gate, ID being checked, people being frisked… There might be
someone really famous here! But that wasn’t a good thing. Spilling boiling hot
coffee on a normal person was bad enough, but if they were Johnny Depp…I would
be hunted down and gutted.
I gulped down the vomit that
was trying to make its way up my trachea, and pretended I wasn’t a terrified
little legal alien who had no business being there.
“Name and ID.” The security guard barked at me from behind
sunglasses, his tan a little too perfect, his nails clearly manicured. Had he
ever even had to break a sweat in this job?
“Uh…Georgiana MacManus, I’m here for the runner job…” I
trailed off and cringed, expecting him to yell at me like the guy at the
airport. America hated me.
“Well don’t you have a cute accent!” He said, softened
perceptively, a big smile lighting up his whole face. Even the security guards
were a little too pretty and polished. He could have easily walked off the set
himself, or a catwalk. Urgh.
I tried to smile, but was too
nervous so settled for chewing my lip instead.
“Don’t worry Darlin’, I don’t think you’re much of a
threat.” He laughed to himself.
Just for that comment I wanted
to kick him in the nuts, but I smiled as much as I could, keeping my lips
together so my ‘normal’ coloured teeth wouldn’t be pitted against his
ultraviolet ‘Ross-from-Friends’ glowing, clearly fake, teeth. I was clearly the
only person who had fallen out of the ugly tree in this place.
So with my tail tucked firmly
between my legs, my self-esteem twenty feet below the asphalt and my stomach
churning like a bitch, I stepped under the gate-arm-thing he so very kindly
lifted for me. Because I’m a tiny, tiny girl and couldn’t manage it myself.
Hollywood clearly has a bad effect on me. I’m angry and aggressive. I think I
like it, it’s certainly a change.
Once past the gate, I had no idea of where I was supposed
to going, or who to ask for. I turned back to the guard and played dumb,
curling a strand of hair around my finger and tilting my head to the side. I
tried puppy dog eyes, but not blinking hurt.
“You lost little lady?” He said, clearly thinking he was a
Sheriff in a Western. I was definitely going to stomp his balls if I got the
chance.
“Yes. I only spoke to the person on the phone briefly about
the job, their name of Zac.”
“I know him. Go straight ahead and go through the big blue
doors on building 19. You can’t miss him, he has a Mohawk.” He laughed to
himself.
I thanked him and trotted off,
the churning in my stomach getting more and more violent as I took each step
closer. They were going to eat me alive.
I finally found the building and entered, peering through
the door and startled at the crazy noise and activity that had been hidden from
the outside world. I stepped in, ducking back as three women ran past me, all
in a flurry about something for Zac. Great. If they were scared of him, he was probably
horrible. And I was going to be on the very bottom rung of this hierarchy
ladder. Awesome.
I tried my best to dodge all
the people flying about as though their arses were on fire. It wasn’t easy as
there were people everywhere, lighting and electrical cables to trip over, a
weird plastic sheeting on the floor that wrinkled in places, and the various
boxes of props that littered every available space. I weaved through the maze
of set pieces, backdrops and standing props, looking for a Mohawk. The guard
was right, you couldn’t miss him. Huge red Mohawk, rings through nose, lips,
ears and brows, fluorescent clothing and a way of standing that made it evident
that he was the king.
I approached nervously, dodging more people running around,
flinching against the shouts, cries and screams of busy people. This place was
dangerous.
Zac was stood between the rows
of makeup mirrors, the cliché movie star ones with the bulbs around them. I was
slightly awed that they were real, until I realized Zac was staring at me with
contempt and a raised eyebrow that just dared me to explain why I was in his
presence.
“Um…Hi, I came about the runner job…” I trailed off.
The makeup girls were laughing
at me, speaking to each other behind their hands and shooting me bitchy looks.
I don’t know why they bothered, it wasn’t like I was any kind of threat to
them. Maybe it was the ‘cute’ accent. Maybe they were just bitches to everyone.
Zac cleared his throat and
looked me over.
“Tomorrow, don’t wear a suit, you will be getting dirty.
Get coffee orders from everyone and go to the place on the corner. We have an
account there, add it to the tab.” He grabbed a pen and notepad off a nearby
table and threw them at me. I caught them, but only just. The girls began
cackling again, their bleached hair and huge boobs just made them look like a
family of clones. Evil bitch clones.
“Every person here, or only specific ones?” I asked.
He looked at me in disgust.
“Didn’t I just say ‘everyone’? Why are you still stood
there?”
“How would I carry all that back?” I asked.
“I’m sure you’ll find a way.” He turned away and sauntered
off.
I wanted to chase him and rip
some of his piercings out. The bitchy girls were still laughing, openly making
snotty comments about me at a volume I was meant to hear.
There were over 70 people
working on the set (but what the set was for I had NO idea) and I’d almost
filled the notebook. I had to ask some people three times because I’d never
heard of skinny hazelnut soya mocha whatever’s. Each drink had about four
different words in its name. This was going to be bad. I could run away. No one
knew my name or had even bothered to ask, I could run and it wouldn’t even
matter. Nope, that was the old me. I was going to somehow do this. Fuck.
I found the coffee shop easily enough, feeling like crying
as I read the list of drinks back to the guy behind the desk. He called a
couple of people from out back and they all got to work, scribbling what they
were on the cups. I stared as the counter was filling with so many of the
damned things. I could probably carry two, maybe three. This was not funny. Was
it some kind of test?
“You’re new aren’t you?” The guy asked.
I nodded.
“They do this to all the new people, it’s like a hazing to
see if they can cope. I’ll send these two to help you carry and we’ll put them
on trays.”
“Thank you!” I said, letting out a breath I hadn’t realised I
was holding. I might actually manage this. I found it slightly disgusting that
they would do that to someone who clearly already had a rubbish job. A runner.
There was no lower and yet they delighted in torturing them on their first day.
Maybe I’d prove them wrong and they’d be so impressed that they’d give me a
better job? I doubted it, but hope was the only thing stopping me from running away
screaming.
The trays fit about 15 cups on each. It would take a couple
of trips, but with the help of the staff, I got all the drinks back and settled
on the fold away table they had food set out upon. I thanked the staff
profusely and started trying to work out what was what. One of the bitchy make
up girls sashayed over and eyed up the table, knocking it with her hip as she
walked past. It wobbled dangerously. I steadied it before anything had the
chance to fall. She walked around the back of the table and without even being
subtle or secretive about it, lifted the back of the table and pushed it over.
I managed to jump back to avoid the scalding hot liquid from burning me, but
some spattered the bare parts of my arms and face, stinging like a bitch. The
makeup girl grinned at me like some kind of evil snake before trotting away
when everyone came to see what had happened.
Zac as there in an instant, disbelief on his face as her
surveyed the damage; the liquid that was flowing in all directions, the massacre
of paper cups that looked like the fallen of some epic battle and me, trying to
clutch at the worst burns I had received with my hands. My shirt was spattered
with coffee that would no doubt stain, my trousers too though it wasn’t so
obvious. What I didn’t understand was why no one was helping me. My skin was
burning and I was in a lot of pain, but no one did anything.
“You’re fired, get the fuck out of here you useless piece
of shit.” He yelled as everyone stood in a circle around the crime scene and
stared at me like an alien life form. The pure venom in their eyes made no
sense. Even if this had been an accident that I had caused, why were they all
being so cruel?
I could feel tears stinging my
eyes as I chewed at me lip.
“Please could I have a first aid kit or something please.
My skin is scalded.”
“Fucking English.” Someone sneered behind me. “Trying to
steal our jobs.”
My mouth hung open in
disbelief as I looked from face to face pleading for help. The pain in my arms
was a rapid pulse of throbbing that made me feel dizzy. Either that or the
horror of what had happened.
“What’s going on?” A strong, confident male voice called
out from behind the crowd, people parting respectfully to allow him through.
Even Zac seemed to look at the ground in deference. The crowd began to inch
away as though they were children caught doing something bad by a parent.
The man who walked through the
parted people like Moses and the Red Sea was… Holy crap he was unreal. I
flinched as he strode across, looking at the mess, his eyes falling on Zac and
blazing with anger.
“What is going on? Why has no one gotten her help? What is
wrong with you people!”
Everyone rushed away,
desperate to be the one to curry favour with him and bring me what I needed.
The very same bitch who caused the problem handed the man a green first aid
case, smiling sweetly and asking if he needed any help. He wasn’t impressed by
her act, though he thanked her politely, his voice had a cool, hard edge to it.
“Could you grab a mop and help get this cleaned up?” He
asked, his voice softening, suddenly sweeter than flowers dipped in honey. She
was momentarily dazzled, but then realized what he had said.
She did not like that!
JUSTICE! Whoever this man was, I loved him. I didn’t care if he took my around
the corner and screamed bloody murder at me for the mess, he had gotten that
cow to clean up HER mess. She stalked off, stomping her heels but not daring to
refuse him. Was he the director? The owner of the lot? They all seemed to know
him, but I was clueless.
He gently took my arm and lead me over to a folding chair,
kneeling before me and opening the case. He took out what was needed before
examining my arms.
He ‘mmmmm’ed and ‘ahhhhh’ed as
he turned them in the light. His touch was electric, but very scary. He had
flipped from this scary badass into someone incredibly gentle with the warmest
hands! And he was on his knees before me. He clearly didn’t have a stick up his
arse like the rest of these people. I studied him, trying to search the
decrepit memory banks of my brain to see if he was famous. Probably, I had no
clue. I could see the crown of his head from where he was bent over my left
arm, but not much else. His hair was a mixture of hues from sun bleached near
white to sandier shades of blonde. There were even a few black and auburn
strands from what I could see. The hair was short but long, and I was aware of
how little sense that made. Pieces of it brushed his forehead and around his
ears, curling a little at the nape of his neck. He was tall with incredibly
strong, toned shoulders and back which was obvious from the sleeveless shirt he
wore. His skin made me look translucently pale with its rich tan. The sun
clearly loved him.
I looked around to see every female in the building peering
out from behind scenery to watch him work on me. They didn’t hide their
contempt for me or the loathing soaked words they hissed to each other. One
girl caught me looking and gave me the finger. I gave it right back. I don’t
care if she is an A list Actress, I’m seriously pissed off with today. My arms
hurt, I’ve been humiliated, fired and most of my money went on the bastard cab
fare, plus I’d have to walk home in my wet, coffee stinking clothes. I’m not a
fan of coffee.
Cold cream was smeared on my skin before he bound it with
gauze and bandages.
“It’s going to hurt like hell for a few days, but I don’t
think it will leave any marks. When you get home, hold it under a cold tap to
ease the pain, or use ice, but other than that, there isn’t much else to do but
wait for it to stop hurting.” He sighed deeply and packed away the things back
into the case.
“I want to apologise for those assholes.”
He said slowly, not meeting my
eyes. “Helping each other is
not in their vocabulary. It’s pretty cut throat here.”
“Thank you.” I said, barely audibly from my body shaking
with anger, pain and embarrassment.
“You’re British?” He said, finally meeting my eyes and
smiling.
I nodded, pulling my arms back
and sitting on my hands to stop them twitching nervously.
“I’m Van Murphy.” He extended a hand to me. I shook it
carefully, the movement sending reverberations of pain through my arms.
“Georgiana MacManus.” I said quietly, feeling myself grow
hot from the weight of his gaze. His eyes were blue and so incredibly intense I
felt that I should look away, but couldn’t. I just stared like a complete
idiot, my mouth hanging open. He smiled again, and it was warm and friendly.
“I am very pleased to meet you Georgiana. Did Zac fire
you?”
I nodded, looking down at my
feet which didn’t reach the floor on this seat. I felt like a tiny kid swinging
my legs, too young, too inexperienced and playing at ‘grown ups’. I was losing
this game.
He was deep in thought for a
moment, chewing on the skin on his fingertips. There was something incredibly
sweet and self-conscious about it, like a child being made to perform in front
of an audience. He had been fine when he had had something to occupy his hands,
but now he seemed to be drawing back into himself. God he was beautiful. So
tall! So toned! And a random spattering of tattoos on his arm and hand. One was
on the inside of his right arm, another on the fleshy part on the back of the
hand between the thumb and first finger. I assumed it was a tattoo, it was too
dark to be a freckle, but too small to decipher. He face (had I not encountered
his kindness) was one that I would assume was full of anger, the natural set of
it (or whilst in reverie) seemed to be a frown. Sandy coloured stubble traced a
pattern around his chin to under his nose, but not in a pretentious goatee, it
was there, but not obvious until you got closer. There was something so careless
about his style that worked. Now I know nothing about fashion, but this boy (he
must have been in his late thirties) was a walking clothes horse. He’d make a
bin liner look good. With his hand at his mouth, it drew attention to the
adorable Marilyn Monroe style beauty spot he had near the corner of his mouth.
Despite his age, there was something incredibly vulnerable about him, shy,
boyish.
The question of
who he was still niggled at me. From the way the girls were still watching, he
must be important.
“Mr.
Murphy…sir…(Americans love their ‘Sirs’ and ‘Ma’ams’) are you a director? I
haven’t been told anything about what’s happening here and as I won’t be coming
back tomorrow…”
He raised an eyebrow in
disbelief. This was clearly new to him. I heard the sharp intake of air from
several of the girls gasping. Apparently he was incredibly famous and I was
being a dumb bunny.
“They were (he heavily accentuated the ‘were’) shooting a
commercial for a new clothing line. I’m one of the actors.” He said modestly.
I had half expected all actors
here to puff out their chests, raise their chins and come out with some awful
line such as; ‘No autographs or photos!’ or worse; ‘Don’t you know who I am?’
with such incredulous rage they’d be spitting pins.
My clueless expression must
have clued him in to the fact that I was still none the wiser.
“Don’t worry, I’m not particularly well known.” He said
with a grin.
One of the girls snorted and
we both turned to look at her. They all fled, trotting away on their heels and
squealing.
He was hugely successful and I
was a dumbass. Awesome. I would have to do some research when I got back to my
shithole that was now (tentatively called ‘home’.
“Now that you are not otherwise engaged employment wise…I’m
looking for a PA if you’re interested.” His expression was earnest without a
hint of mockery. What the hell!
“Uh…I…” Good job G, stellar performance. You’ve only been
talking for 27 or so years.
I braced myself, taking a deep
breath and hoping words came out this time. He was smiling in such a warm,
friendly way, I felt slightly better, though it did make a blush rise from my
toes to my hairline.
“I have absolutely no experience, no contacts and wouldn’t
even know where to start. The fact that I don’t know who you are speaks volumes…”
I chewed my lip and looked at my stupid short legs swinging under the chair
nervously.
“You are the first person I have met in this Hellhole that
is sane, grounded, doesn’t trot around in useless shoes, flip her hair with
every movement…” He stopped for breath, working himself into a full rant like I
do. I bit back a smile.
“You’re like a breath of fresh air. Besides, I’ve managed
this long without a PA, so I’m sure you’ll have the chance to work it all out.
I’m just as clueless, we can learn together.”
“I could jeopardise your whole
career!” My voice became a high pitched squeal as I thought madly for excuses
to run away again.
Was it not bad enough that I had no clue who he was
without destroying his career and doing a great job of making sure everyone
else didn’t know either.
“Georgiana, it’ll be fine. If you suck, I’ll just fire your
ass.” He fluttered his eyelids and grinned.
I couldn’t help but return it
with a nervous giggle.
He fished around in his pocket
and pulled out a business card.
“I hate these things, but my agent forces me to carry them
around. My number, email etc. etc. are all on there. Think about it and give me
a call, ok?”
I nodded once, desperate to both
stay in his presence for ever and ever and ever amen, and get the hell out of
there before I humiliated myself further.
“I’ll call you a cab so you can go home and get cleaned up.
But think about it, seriously. The pay will be good, the company is awesome (he
rolled his eyes) and you don’t have to worry about a dental plan because you’re
from Blighty.” He bit his bottom lip.
He extended a hand to help me
to my feet, being careful of my arm. I realised that I had been too distracted
to notice the pain, but now that I thought about it, it hurt like hell!
I trudged up the stairs to my flat, each step causing
shockwaves of pain to shudder through my arms. There was a puddle outside my
door that smelt suspiciously like urine. Awesome! Despite the pain and the
piss, I was in a surprisingly good mood. A beautiful man had come to my rescue
and offered me a job. I had two problems; I had no idea of what a PA actually
did. There was also the fact that I would no doubt end up either ruining his
career, or falling so head over heels in love with him that I would be useless.
I
unlocked my door and hopped over the puddle. I wasn’t cleaning it up, it might
stop crazy bitch from upstairs from knocking on my door, though she might have
been the one to do it. She seemed like the vindictive sort.
I made a cup of tea, took a
shower (the water was -unsurprisingly- freezing cold, but blissful on my burned
skin!) and collapsed on the bed, staring at the card he had given me.
‘Van Murphy. Actor. Model. Criminally Beautiful…’
Ok the last one wasn’t on
there, but it should be. I could see why the girls fawned over him, though I
wouldn’t want to get on his bad side. I wasn’t sure if the imposing march to my
rescue had been an act, or he was schizophrenic, either way it was appreciated.
I didn’t think Zac would be asking me back in a hurry.
I wanted to look Van up on the
net, but surprise, surprise, this building didn’t have access. In fact it
didn’t have a lot of things it should have; heating, hot water, safety,
internet, no urine puddles outside my door… Urgh. If I took the job with Van, I
might be able to get out of here! Wouldn’t it be worth giving it a try just for
that? Ok, I was lying to myself. I would be doing it because my heart did crazy
backflips whenever I thought of how tenderly he had tended to my arms. He had
the hands of a manly man; no manicure, calloused skin (no doubt from gnawing at
it) and natural. I doubted he’d had work done, he looked too…real. No Botox- he
had faint lines on his forehead (like a person is SUPPOSED to), his tan was
uneven in places, so must be natural, his teeth were white, but not luminously
so, his hair was tousled and I didn’t think he was wearing an iota of makeup. He
was as men used to be, how they should be, before everyone went mental and
‘metrosexual’. Don’t get me wrong, if you’re wearing makeup by choice, go for
it. I love a guy in eyeliner, but if you’re doing it to follow the flock, it’s
just really sad. I was drifting off into school girl fantasies about Van with
eyeliner and black nail polish ala Jared Leto in ‘The Kill’ video…
Once I’d cleaned up the drool
from the Jared Leto/Van fantasies, I thought I would start researching my new
potential boss. If he were that famous, he’d be in all those celeb magazines,
probably being out-ed as an alien, or having a tail. Back to my favourite place!
Shop dude narrowed his eyes at me as I walked in the door.
I wasn’t sure if it was specifically for me, or all customers, but I kinda
wanted to run away. I didn’t. I gave him a smile and headed for the magazine
rack. Oh oblivion, thy name is George! He was on the cover of almost every.
Single. One. I grabbed them all spending waaaaaaay more than I should have, and
rushing back ‘home’ to see what the gutter press had to say about him.
I’ve clearly been in a coma for the last five or so years.
This man has been in tons of movies, TV shows, commercials and modelling
campaigns. There were three ads for clothing in one mag alone that he starred
in. He was so modest by listing himself as ‘one of the actors’. He was THE
actor. The only one that Hollywood seemed to care about from the looks of
things. I learned no end of things, but couldn’t be sure if they were true or
not due to the magazines they were in. He didn’t have a tail from what I could
garner, but he had a son called Luke whose mother was a ridiculously beautiful
and successful supermodel. Awesome! I think I’ll be killing off any fantasies
about the two of us ending up together then. I threw the magazine I was reading
at a wall, not happy about the old picture of the two of them hand in hand
looking blissfully happy. If he was perfect, she was the female version of it,
she shouldn’t have been allowed out of the house due to the hit that every
woman’s self-esteem in a ten mile radius would take just from knowing about her
existence!
I
walked into the bathroom and studied myself in the mirror. I really wasn’t
pretty, or even interesting. The only thing that could be said about me was
‘different’, and not in good ways. My blue eyes were ok, but my nose was too
heavy, my hair was no colour (it used to be blonde and has since faded as I’ve
gotten older), my skin is pretty awful as I have huge pores, a scar on my cheek
(it’s tiny, but still there) from a childhood injury and I get spots as often
as I did as a teen. My bottom teeth overlapped even after 6 years of braces and
never seemed white enough no matter how much I scrubbed, flossed and mouth
washed. I was pale, but not in a nice way like Dita Von Teese, just in a sickly
way. I had a few freckles across the bridge of my nose, but they weren’t
obvious amongst the huge pores. I was a wreck. I’d never had that ‘gorgeous’
phase that girls seem to go through in their twenties after the awkward teenage
years pass and they grow into their features. I just looked like an old
teenager with the fine lines across my forehead and the laughter lines at the
corners of my eyes. I just wanted to punch the mirror in. The only positive I
could find was the fact that I didn’t have to look at me, everyone else did.
But I could see now why the girls at the studio had smirked and mocked me, they
were gorgeous, I was fugly. Short of extensive surgery that I couldn’t afford,
I would always stand out here, for all the wrong reasons.
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